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PTSD & my conversation with the army in Vineland, NJ

resalock — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:31:23 +0000

I was sitting outside of the recruiting office for the army in Vineland NJ. I decided to go in and ask questions on previous knowledge I have come across on a site regarding chaplines for the army. To enquire about information regarding how to become a chapline which would have relating interest relating to my life and my experinces.
I was asked by one of them if I was an ordained minister, (my problem in response was she was referring to the established minstry to peoples prestanding organizations and beliefs. ) So I didn’t really know how to answer that statement in relation to thoughts she has what that is. Even though I am ordained, by God but not prestanding religions who are not ordained by God.) My response was I speak against many relgions. I proceeded to speak of my experiences regarding my encounter with a couple of pre-existing chapline practices in the army. I was very nervous. And they started getting a little course by yet, seemingly polite in keeping an image.
It was hard for me to keep on my words and find words relating to thier force. (thats the best way I can exaplain it. ) The guy I was speaking to started accusing me of beating around the bush making up thoughts I did not have. I explained to him , “no this is not true, I am just trying to find words relating to your society and trying to explain my interest in support for people who suffer because of the war and army, regarding PTSD. And who would I speak to in relation to that about getting information about being a chapline among the army for the suffering. I told them if I do not serve in this act. All that what I have been through has all just been in vain.
I went on to explain again my enquirering that I saw an article on line about chaplines in the army. And I came in here becuase I was jsut wondering if you had information regardning that, or could lead me to speak to someone who would have that information.
I went on again about my experiences and the experiences in looking for a specailist for tramas and healing and a couple encouters in the army which they are to seem to be located. And my encounters was pointless and a dead end. I told them about one of the experiences where I called someone up claming to be of a church . and worked among people with PTSD of the army. And how aweful my expeince was. Telling me,” I cannot be healed unless I ask Jesus to come into my heart. Yet they gave no evidence of true suffering and PTSD.
I told them my point is exactly what I am expressing to you. That I am interested in services to support and give something for these people. Or understanding and support.
They proceeded to tell me that I would have to go to a church and go through them.
I told them I have experinces with these popel of spirtual abuses that have or make the war in this society today. And I was opressed by their lack of awereness or knowledge. (I was getting really upset within me; I just wanted to cry. )
It was as though I wasn’t heard , though I was given the implication that I was, by body language.
He responded as though he didn’t hear and said,” Well go to as domestic violence shelter.” I said , I have been there years ago, thats not what I am asking for. “
He tried to gesture me out and saying , “Well I hate to cut you off, but I have work to do.”
So I just said, “Well I guess you can’t give me the information or point me to who I would speak to. ” I just told them to have a good day. (fustrated from thier lack of knowledge and trying to comunicate what people have established in the minds of people giving no understanding.)
They said , They have thier own chapline they call for when asked in NY.
Is the army really fighting for a nation that is attacked by other means.
Are the churches that claim God and hope for a suffering nation really healing or bringing more confusion?

This woman who was responding to me in the beginning of the conversation said,” there is a chapline to everyones beliefs whoever; they call for, continuing to say,” not all chaplines are Christian. There is Muslem, ect”…I responded, yes I know these religions I study them. And had great encouters with them. [I just don't believe in them having any knowledge about true realities.] I spoke about the spiritual abuses and wars among the churches a bit. And how they have been damaging and opressing to people with tramas.
So they ended really that I need to go though these churhes …
What is a Chriastin accept those who have the anointing to anoint and guide the soul out from bondage.

God help me . You have given me an unbearable overwhelming mission through many hard obsticals that man has established. I cannot go through this course of trial. I am not one who can speak right or have words to be what people expect. The hard grounds of what they have established. This is so big. I am dying and drowning in my own torments. They hold me under and there are many of them. I don’t even want to live and if something isn’t changed my life is menaingless. Please Lord, deliver me. I am to weak. And what is strength that they have that is stronger than mine. If They wind up with the same owrds as I. Be the stregth redeem our souls. So let it be.

Posted in Christianity insight & other religions.

Now, me or You?

resalock — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 03:09:38 +0000

I am spirit. Myself is unknown. Ever changing; ever growing. To know myself now, will die tomorrow. Tomorrow never comes. To grow up is yesterday gone; losig your experience will today be done. I am you, I carry your soul. To be just me is death. Never knowing your own. Only a passing is a sold out bowl. To only know of yourself is vanity; where there is no charity. Can you only judge what you are? Is everyone like you; Will you always be wrong…What is it to think you are of the strong? Who is of you, where reality stands so far?
Oh, fool come pull me out of “Me.”

Author; written by: Theresa Lockwood in the Christ.

Posted in Poetry of Light through Theresa

The hidden child

resalock — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 14:53:45 +0000

Every Child that has a story to tell. The soul of the innocent, hidden in the darkness of man. So untainted by the worlds illusions, delusions, oppressions, seeking a solution. But the child so kept away, forgotten, left behind. Now reconditioned, the mind. Shut away, never to come out to play. Now only smiles of impression. Not at your own discetion. Time, time, time. What is the time? My soul is no longer mine.

written by: theresa lockwood

Posted in Poetry of Light through Theresa

Thue Prophets prt 1

resalock — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:53:04 +0000

There are many different purposes and degrees of the purpose of a prophet. Whatever God designated them to do. But woe to those who claim to be a prophet and are not.Yes this is because of their position with God. But they are still to be recognized as holy. And are Gods chosen. They are Gods Judges!

Prophets always exist…as long as there is sin, oppression, perverseness of government and a sufferng of a people because of it. Unjustness brought by the laws of man. Prophets are there.

Prophets have knowledge of spiritual insight into the will of God. Usually against a naition or people who have fallen or strayed away from Gods ‘order’ so to say.

A prophet is usually grieved by surrounding enviroment and has insight to the cause and effect and the solution or judgement concerning these issues. Only having insight by divine revelation based on Gods will. That does not pervert against his natural design.

A prophet is a mourner and a petitioner, A vessel of truth. They carry the burdons of the sins of a people. An error in humanity that oppresses. They carry many grievances and sorrows.

They are the will of God not seen by the ones who are in darkness by the action of self will by the disrupted chaos around them.

They are in opposition to the accepted morals or immorals of the accepted majority.

Prophets are sanctifyers; they enlighten through grace by the knowledge of God.

Prophets are usually persecuted by ignorance of a governing authority or possibly killed.

Prophets must pursue their mission, even if it cost them their life.

Prophets bring warning of destruction of a people by their own sins.(not based on natural disasters) though warning of this can be given.

A prophets focus is Gods will for humanity.(not isolated small groups that todays societies pick out the “better” ones to their standards to say God is blessing us.)

A prophet does not control humanity. But serves.

A prophet is a slave of divine truth… And tormented by lies that cause disasters against Gods will.

A prophet is only an initiate only by God… and refuses initiations of man.

A prophet is a sufferer. Will not choose pleasure for self gain. They do not live for themselves.

A prophets desires are spiritual; pure and selfless.

A prophet is disregarded and persecuted known as trouble, crazy, demon possessed, mentally ill, ect(not saying this list makes someone a prophet)

A prophet is a NON conformist, but is only conformed by the will of the holy spirit.

A sinner can be chosen as a prophet for God. A prophet is capable of sinning. But not a practicing sinner.

A prophet is a repenter, sins of a prophet is punished by God publicly. A prophet is punished by a people publicly for doing Gods will. Because they are against Gods will. God rebukes his prophets because of sin.

A prophets life source is Gods wisdom.

A prophet has knowledge of evil and good of humanity.

Prophets are raised up in Gods natural design in the midst of a wicked generation.

God only communes his message to a people through the prophets.

A prophet can never cease from their position.

A prophet is not chosen by mankind.

A prophet has holy wisdom, knowledge and understanding of Gods truth.

A prophet is a light in darkness and dispeller of ignorance.

A prophet has the same meaning of a mystic.

Not all prophets are chosen as a position of leadership of governing a people. But they can be.

Some prophets are chosen to prophet to prophets.

A proclaiming prophet who claims the foretelling of future events and has not the knowledge of spiritual matters and the will of God that guides a people of spiritual principles is not a prophet.

A prophet will not prophecy to individuals for self gain for worldly riches and wants of their own heart.

A prophet is a vessel for God to love a people through them.

A prophet speaks against a people,that is against God, usually oppressing or false governments.

A prophet is yielding to God, not mankind, they do not follow the governing rules of man that is perverse against God. They are not learned by man with the knowledge of man by the higher knowledge they obtain from God.

A prophet is an interpret of the good and evils of humanity.

A prophet does not place themselves above the law a people is governed and judged by.

A prophet cannot willfully lie for self benefits. Or to cover their own sin.

A prophet does not keep Gods will and knowledge from a people. But can give knowledge in mystery or discerned time.

A prophet accepts maximum penalty for self willed sin.

A prophet is not distinguished by certain characteristics.

A prophet is not, either secular or for the local accepted religions or who call themselves the Christian church.

A prophet doesn’t always have ‘good news’ to mans standards.

A prophet convicts sin.

A prophet does not have to be learned by the bible.

A prophet does not pervert Gods natural law in word in prophesying.

A prophet is a discerner and interpreter of the spirits for humanity.

A prophet does not have to know all things .Only the knowledge for their purpose.

There are many prophets and many false prophets.

A prophet will not deny or hide being questioned. But will deny vain questions with response, not in vain.

Preaching comes from prophesying.

A prophet and teacher of the scriptures are 2 different purposes. But a prophet can teach or interpret scripture.

A prophet has understanding and knowledge of the prophets.

A prophet understands angelic language. Of their own language.

Prophets are raised up because of the sorrows of God to a rebellious people against Him.

Prophets have revelations, they muse in this time or out of time, they receive a high knowledge of authority from God.

Prophets can speak and understand in knowledge based metaphors.

Prophets hear Gods voice either outside of themselves or within their conscience as in dreams or day visions.

Prophets muse often on Gods knowledge or natural laws.

Prophets are hypersensitive to environment. Spiritual principals and emotions of mankind.

Prophets will teach how to discern the prophets even themselves.

Prophets can be discerned and recognized by demonic spirits.

Prophecy is for present humanity/ generation. Which also can reveal future prophecy within present prophecy, or to say promise .(will not write about it for purpose of protection of defilement)

Prophecy ( according to mans understanding.) Can have negative and positive judgement. Both are to be respected.

Prophecy can be philosophical. But not of mans false philosophies.

Prophets are commuters with God.

Prophets do not distinguish themselves in higher positions over the love God has for mankind.

Prophets obtain the emotions of God, anger, compassion, sorrow, ect.
Prophets do not deny their emotion. But are more inclined to understanding their emotions. And put others emotions before themselves.

Prophet does not count for good speaker or professionalism.

A prophet can have a profession. But do not have to.

A prophet is not an office but of recognition of spirit.

A prophets message from God are not opinions of man.

Prophets do not have to know the meaning of the word prophet. But they know who they are.

A prophet will not try to impress man by outward appearances.

Prophets can work and have another title. (Such as Jesus worked.)

The word prophet has the same meaning as the words “mystic, niva, oracle, preacher, …”

There is no knowledge that can prove a prophets message of God wrong.
Prophets can speak of their own thoughts. To be distinguished from the thoughts of God.

Prophets do not have to be highly intellectual but can be.

A prophets prophecy is not the interpretation of the bible.

Prophets can quote from previous prophets messages.

Matthew24:9-11
Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for my names sake, and many will be offended and betray one another, and will hate one another. Then many false prophets will raise up and deceive many.

Written by :Theresa Lockwood in the Christ

All prophets commune with God. Some face to face(meaning plainly) and some in mysteries.( known as dark sayings)
Numbers 12:6-8
If there is a prophet among you, I the Lord make myself known to him in a vision; I speak to him in a dream. Not so with my servant Moses; he is faithful in all my house. I speak to him face to face’plainly’ and not in dark sayings.

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Myths about prophets: prt2

resalock — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:38:38 +0000

Myths about prophets.

All prophets are to foretell of future events or perform a miracle.

What a prophet says has to be found in the bible.

Prophets are fascinated with crosses.

Prophets have to confess the name Jesus on a personal level.

There are Christian church prophets and the secular prophets.

True prophets aren’t often rejected.

Prophets won’t disagree with pre-standing leaders of your local church.

True prophets don’t suffer or aren’t persecuted or killed because no evil prevails against the church of God.

True prophets aren’t lonely wonderers.

The last prophet was Malachi or Jesus.

Prophets are only male.

Prophets do not sin so they have no need to repent.

Prophets always bring a message of peace.

Prophets have to perform 3 miracles or more.

True prophets must have a good reputation.

There are old testament and new testament prophets.

Prophets don’t bring accusation of sin. To call a people to repent.

True prophet must aline with accepted morals.

True prophets don’t get frustrated, overwhelmed or angry.

If the prophet has 2 or 3 witnesses he is a prophet. Than he is a true prophet.

Prophets do not stay more than 2 days.

There’s only 2 types of prophets.

Prophets do not speak against the government.

The Word of God by the prophets does not cause division amongst the people.

Prophets do not judge/ judgmental.

Prophets are not raised up from other religions or cultures.

True prophets have to love the roman cross as a sacrament.

True prophets will confess that Jesus is God the Creator.

True prophets are not in spiritual warfare.

The true prophets message doesn’t hurt and is not offensive to your beliefs.

Prophets only operate when the people are in high worship and praise.

you can only become a prophet if hands are laid on you by other ministers.

True prophets are never alone.

There’s only one prophet at a time for the world.

Prophecy means to bubble up and inspire.

Preaching and teaching are preplanned but prophecy is not.

A true prophet doesn’t get tested.

In a vision a true prophet will not breath and collapse.

A true prophet must have superhuman strength.

A true prophet will have perfect health at all times.

A true prophet knows salvation starts with Acts.2:38 for all nations to be saved.

Prophets proclaim the the date/time of Jesus return.

written by: Theresa Lockwood

Posted in Christianity insight & other religions.

Rainbow Brilliance

resalock — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 12:50:05 +0000

DID YOU EVER TRY TO CHASE A RAINBOW?

WHEN YOU FINALLY COME TO IT. IT SEEMS TO DISAPPEAR. YOU TRAVEL FAR OUT OF YOUR WAY. AWED BY ITS BEAUTY BOWED ACROSS THE SKY. THE CLOSER YOU SEEM TO GET TO IT .IT SEEMS TO FADE AWAY. IN DISAPPOINTMENT YOU TURN BACK, WALK AWAY, THEN TURN AROUND .AND THAT SAME RAINBOW YOU CHASED AFTER AND THOUGHT WAS GONE, IS STILL THERE. THE RAINBOW IS VEIWED AS MANY THINGS. FOR SOME ITS CALLED THE PROMISE. FOR OTHERS THE SYMBOL OF COMPLETENESS. IT’S A REFLECTION OF LIGHT AND WATER. ELEMENTS THAT ARE ALWAYS THE NEED OF OUR SOULS. DEPENDING WHERE WE STAND IN LIFE. HOW WE ARE PLACED IN THE MIDST OF THE PROMISE. WE NEED THE RAIN AS WELL AS THE SON. THE RAINBOW IS A REFLECTION OF A HIDDEN TREASURE UNSEEN FROM THE RAYS OF HOPE OF A GREAT PROMISE. DON’T WALK AWAY BECAUSE YOU CAN’T SEE IT. ITS THERE. DON’T LET THE STORM BEFORE, CARRY AWAY YOUR SOUL.

origional author, written by: Theresa Lockwood in the Christ

Posted in Poetry of Light through Theresa

How can another religion professing God, hate a ‘true’ Christian?

resalock — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 14:53:18 +0000

How can another religion professing God, hate a ‘true’ Christian?

I think we must ask ourselves first. What is a Christian? I just had a conversation with some people who later professed to me that they don’t like Christians. (The interesting thing is. Is that they were Muslem.) And I said,” what does Christian mean to you. They really had no answer and gave me a book of thiers by a Muslem. That claimed that the idea of Christian came later by Paul; and that the word is only located in the writings of Paul, and he changed Jesus teachings. And tried to make a new name, and Jesus wasn’t called a Christian. [If that were the case than someone could say the word homosexual isn’t in the bible so therefore…( and one time I did come into this discussion.) BUT YET GOD DID SPEAK AGAINST HOMOSEXUAL PRACTICES. So for someone to make a refute of the word Christianity not being in the bible is a vain arguement.
Before I had gotten into the book. They asked me if I know what Muslem means. I said,” yes, Its one who submits to God. ” So I explained,” isn’t that what a Christian is suppose to mean?” ( The interesting part of it is. Is that they call themselves slaves of Allah. Which Allah only means God but in Arabic. )
It was unfortunate that our visit together was cut short but I did respond to them in a letter concerning the book they gave me. (Which I had to even be in disagreement on behalf of the book on both sides.) So I wrote a letter and explained in a small part what a Christain was:
The word Christian is actually Christianos. Which is greek. (ianos) actually means slave. Christ is the greek form of Messaiah in later Hebrew. Which comes another translation from Meshiach. Which Christ/Messaiah/Meshiach/prophet; means “Gods’ annointed.”

In a later dated time Christians were mocked and the name identified saying its claiming little children and or little Christian as the meaning. Because they were identified as children by Jesus and located in the epistles what is known of the letters of John as little children.

The “Christ” which identifies the anointing of His prophets. Thus Christ identifies prophet/meshiach.
Christ is not found in what is known as the old testament. Because the old testament is in Hebrew/Israelite language. Which they translate into English as Prophet or Meshiach. What is known as the new testament today. was written by the scribes of that time in Greek, Latin, Arabic. Which were the main languages that were spoken at that time of Jesus; which would actually be Yeshua or Jesu.
The anointing is by the Holy Spirit. Which would mean. Gods Word translated from Logos; which would mean Gods wisdom and knowledge. As would come from the great expression of this.
John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
( Which means God is the same as His Word/Wisdom)
you will find the reflection in this in Proverbs 8:12-31
So for someone to say Christian does not exist and Paul started it. This is not the case.
A Christain is not those who seem to be morally correct, an accepted member of society, ones who propfess the name Jesus, or a member of your local church.
NOT EVERYONE WHO SAYS TO ME LORD, LORD,’ SHALL ENTER THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN. BUT HE WHO DOES THE WILL OF MY FATHER IN HEAVEN.
SO WHAT CHRISTIAN WOULD MEAN. WOULD BE, “SLAVE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS” ( a well known statement we probably all heard.)
Which would also mean. Slave of the anointing. or to say: SLAVE OF TRUTH/THE WORD.
Jesus said I am the temple. John 2:19 Jesus answered and said unto them,”Destroy this temple and in 3 days I will raise it up.
21. But he was speaking of the temple of his body.(narative.)
It was the Word that spoke this.
Jesus idetnified his body as the temple. Where Gods Word dwells inside. And thus is God because God is the same as His
Word.
Jesus is the temple. Jesus is not God. God/Word dwelled in Jesus, in the temple.
Jesus is a prophet/messiah/meshiach/son( all the same purpose/meaning.)
John14:10
DO YOU NOT BELIEVE THAT I AM IN THE FATHER AND THE FATHER IN ME?THE WORDS THAT I SPEAK TO YOU,’ I DO NOT SPEAK ON MY OWN AUTHORTIY;’ BUT THE FATHER WHO DWELLS IN ME DOES THE WORKS.

Thats why Jesus says if you have seen me you have seen the Father…( This is not about the appearnce of the physiacal Jesus but the Spirit within him, that was always yielding and in alinement with the Father.
To see Him or the Father would be to see the Word of the Spirit of the wisdom of God within him.
Thats why Jesus prays as he was weakened in the flesh. And says: Matthew 26: 39b & 41b
OH MY FATHER, IF IT IS POSSIBLE LET THIS CUP PASS FROM ME: NEVER THE LESS NOT AS “I” WILL , BUT AS “YOU” WILL…
THE SPIRIT IN DEED IS WILLING , BUT THE FLESH IS WEAK.
John12:49,50
For I have not spoken of mine own authority; but the Father who has sent me gave me a command, what I should say and what I should speak.
And I know that his command is everlasting life. Therfore what ever I speak, just as the Father has told me so I speak.
JESUS IS COMMANDED WHAT TO SAY, AND DOES NOT SPEAK OF HIS OWN AUTHORITY.
A reflection of this is located in the book of Exodous concerning Moses.
Ex. 4:15
And I will teach you what you shall do. So he shall be your spokesman to the people, and he himslef shall be a mouthpiece for you. AND YOU SHALL BE TO HIM AS GOD.
Deuteronomy18:18 (NOTICE THE EXACT LIKENESS IN JOHN12:49,50)
I will raise up a prophet like you from among thier brethern, and I will put my words in his mouth, and he shall speak to them all that I command.
It says Like Moses.
Moses was Gods anointed; Gods Prophet. And Jesus was prophecied about as the coming prophet/meshiach. The only mouth piece for God is the prophets. Who obtain Gods knwoledge and wisdom. Thus through every prophet must obtain Gods Wisdom;Word.
To be a Chritian is to be a slave of righteousness. To be a hearer/ yielder to HIS Truth.
SO THEREFORE CHRISTIAN WAS FROM THE BEGINNING EVER SINCE GOD COMMANDED AND SPOKE TO MANKIND.
A CHRISTIAN ARE THE HEARERS OF GODS WORD TO THE PROPHETS AND THROUGH THE PROPHETS.

Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death. But the gift of God is eternal life. In Christ Jesus our Lord.
The thing is, is that Gods commands actually frees from slavery of the world. To be a slave of righteousness is to be free from the slave of sin. Sin will always cause oppression in the world. Slavery to righteousness actually free you. And this righteousness Jesus unvieled an his teachings.
Matthew 5:17
Do not think I came to destroy the law or the prophets. I did not come to destroy but to fullfill.
Matthew 22:37-40
” You shall love the Lord God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.’
This is the frist and greatest commandment.
And the second is like it: You shall love your nieghbor AS yourself.
On these 2 commandments hang all the law and the prophets. “
Already given in the Torah.
Deuteronomy 6:4,5
Hear oh Israel: The Lord you God! The LORD IS ONE!
You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength.
See also Leviticus 19: 17,18
Your neighbor pertains also to a stranger. But not to the wicked; (not to ruin this work on this page.) But the wicked would petain to people like Hitler.

Article written by: Theresa Lockwood;
in the Christ

Posted in Christianity insight & other religions. Tagged: christian, what is it